Slow Down My Beating Heart
by Kat Halcyon


E-MAIL: kathalcyon@hotmail.com or kathalcyon@yahoo.ca
RATING: PG
SEQUEL: To various other fics set to U2 lyrics.
SUMMARY: Loneliness makes bitter company.
DISCLAIMER: All publicly recognisable characters and places are the property of MGM, World Gekko Corp and Double Secret Productions. This piece of fan fiction was created for entertainment not monetary purposes and no infringement on copyrights or trademarks was intended. Previously unrecognised characters and places, and this story, are copyrighted to the author. Any similarity to real persons, living or dead, is coincidental and not intended by the author.
AUTHOR'S NOTES: Next one will be happy. I think. I hope. I risk being smacked, otherwise.
BETA'S NOTES: Kat's a dumbass, I have no other explanation...

"In a little while
This hurt will hurt no more."
- "In A Little While", U2

Brave words, for such a fearful heart. So Janet thought to herself.

How could she have said what she said? How had those words escaped her lips? A part of her felt that way, of course, but who had given that part control of her mouth?

She had lost him. No, she corrected herself as she sat limply in her car. She had never had him, she told herself sternly. All she had ever had was a fantasy and some hope.

Both were gone now.

He had feelings for her. She was as sure of that as she was of her own feelings for him. However, for whatever reason, he had shut those emotions off. He wanted her, but did nothing when she offered herself.

Janet tried to start the car, but instead rested her head on the steering wheel and let the tears come. She couldn't drive in this condition. Yet she needed to go home, so she could curl up in bed with a carton of ice cream.

She had to get over him.

Going to see him wasn't a mistake, Janet told herself savagely. She had wanted closure. She had it now, with a vengeance.

She couldn't love someone so afraid of love. The idea went against reason and logic and everything she had ever felt.

She shouldn't, wouldn't, couldn't.

She did.

It was crazy. Foolish. How could she be so desperately in love with the man? For so long, he had only been a friend. Now he was everything.

Love had come suddenly. It could leave suddenly too.

With any luck.

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