Even Angels Fall
by Lucy Elmer

EMAIL: sweetaspie@talk21.com
STATUS: Sequel to To Catch A Falling Star. There may be another one after this, or there may not, that depends on you guys.
CATEGORY: D&J, drama, angst, romance, AU (sorta) and S&J established relationship.
RATING: PG-13.
SEASON/SEQUEL INFO: Erm...dunno I'm afraid.
SPOILERS: Point Of View, There But For The Grace Of God, the ones with Katherine in em.
SUMMARY: A year after Summer was brought into their lives, Janet finds herself torn apart as the life of the man she loves lies in jeopardy.
DISCLAIMER: All publicly recognizable characters and places are the property of MGM, World Gekko Corp and Double Secret Productions. This piece of fan fiction was created for entertainment not monetary purposes and no infringement on copyrights or trademarks was intended. Previously unrecognized characters (such as Kate, Summer, Jay, Aidan, Danni, Kellie, Matthew and Abby Matthews) and places, and this story, are copyrighted to the author. Any similarity to real persons, living or dead, is coincidental and not intended by the author.
AUTHORS NOTE: This is to my mum and dad, two wonderful people who I adore, my brothers and sister and the rest of my family and all my friends especially Ellie (puddin) cos she's a darlin!!! It's to Louisa and all the guys at SODS who I am having an incredible time with at the moment. It is to all the guys who sent me feedback on To Catch A Falling Star especially AJ who seemed to be quite excited when she found out I was writing a sequel, and John who has been a constant source of support. It is also to the actors who have made this universe such an incredible one to play in. Most importantly though this is for Bryn and Pat.


Even Angels Fall.

Janet Fraiser lay in bed, rain hitting her bedroom window in a quiet rhythm outside. It was early morning and all was quiet except for the soothing sound of the summer rain, and the gentle breathing of the blue-eyed angel who lay asleep beside her.

Lying on her side she looked at him. One year ago this very day two visitors from an alternate reality had brought this man into her heart, and it was a day that would remain there forever. That day she had gained a daughter, lost another and found true love with a man who had stolen her heart from the very first moment that she met him, and for the past year every moment that she spent with him, every second she spent in his arms or looking into those blue eyes made the love that she felt inside grow ever stronger. He looked so innocent lying there, so vulnerable, Janet thought as she ran a finger down his cheek then tracing the outline of his lips with her finger, and it made her warm inside when she looked at him and saw the love he held inside just for her.

"Hey." Came a voice filled with sleep from the darkness.

"Hey yourself." she replied smiling as she felt an arm wrap protectively around her waist and pull her towards him.

"It's two in the morning baby, why aren't you asleep?" Daniel asked her as she nuzzled her head under his chin and rested a hand on his chest.

"I don't know, something just doesn't feel right."

"With us?" Daniel asked playing with her hair.

"No with me. I love you, you know that, It's just... I have this feeling."

"Are you sick?" he asked putting a hand on her head to feel for a temperature.

"I don't think so. I just feel... different somehow and I can't shake this feeling that something bad is going to happen."

"Hey." he replied kissing her on the forehead. "Nothing bad is going to happen."

"Daniel I just have this terrible feeling. I guess I'm being stupid huh?" she replied looking at his face that had been lit up with the light of the moon.

He kissed her sweetly.

"You could never be stupid Janet."

He looked at her face, which though beautiful was filled with worry.

"Has something happened to make you feel this way? Has somebody said something to unsettle you?"

"No look it's fine." she replied trying to mask the worry and fear that filled her voice. "You go back to sleep okay, I'm going to check on the girls."

"Sweetie..."

Janet got up and put on a robe.

"Baby, sleep." she told him stroking his face. "I'm fine I promise."

Janet left the room leaving a very confused and worried Daniel behind. She walked to Cassandra's room and gently pushed the door open to see the teenager fast asleep, her light on and a book open at her side. She walked over to the young woman and kissed her on the forehead then pulling the covers over her and tucking her in. She picked up the book and marked the page, then kissed her again, turned off the light and gently shut the door behind her.

Janet then walked to Summer's room. The young infant was now just over a year old and had been the apple of hers and Daniel's eye since she had been placed in their care by alternate versions of themselves a year ago. She walked over to the crib and looked at the angelic form of the sleeping child, her piercing blue eyes closed with sleep. She stroked the child's smooth ivory skin, careful not to wake her, smiling at her affectionately.

She tiredly walked over to the rocking chair by window and sat down, looking at the rain that was lit up like crystals by the light of the moon. Quietly opening the drawer of the cabinet in front of her she pulled out Summer's baby book. She turned the pages, looking at the pictures inside of her alternate self with her Daniel while she was carrying Summer, his arm protectively around her swollen belly. She looked at the picture of them just after Summer's birth, a picture tinged with sadness as one friend lay dying in the arms of the woman he loved while a new life began. She looked at the record herself, Daniel, Cassandra and the others had kept detailing Summers firsts, and she looked at the ultrasound photos taken during her counterparts pregnancy, running a finger over them, a hand subconsciously resting on her stomach.

Summer started to stir in her crib. Hearing the child Janet walked over to the crib and picked her up, taking her over to the changing mat and changing her diaper and then carrying her over to the rocking chair and sitting down, rocking her gently in her arms.

Summer began to cry.

"Ssshhh sweetie it's okay." she soothed kissing the child on her forehead.

"Mommy's here. Ssshhh."

Gradually Summer began to settle in Janet's arms, looking up at her with her piercing blue eyes that were so similar to her fathers.

Janet stroked her forehead.

"Someone just wanted a hug huh?"

Janet looked down at the form of the now sleeping child, remembering the first time that she had held her in her arms knowing that this child had been created by her and Daniel, knowing that she would be responsible for the life of this tiny person for the rest of her days. She remembered the incredible love that had flowed through her every minute since the blue eyed infant had been put into her care, and the role that this child and her older sister had played in bringing her together with a man she knew she wanted to spend the rest of her life with. She remembered the day where she had awoken to find Daniel and her friends painting the nursery she was now sitting in, and the paint fight herself and Daniel had started leading to their first beautiful kiss of many, the first time she had felt his strong yet loving arms wrapped around her and the first time that both had succumbed to the mutual love they held for each other and made love.

Being careful not to stir the child she put the book carefully back into the drawer from which she had got it and picked up a picture of a young woman, her hair shoulder length and brown, her eyes chocolate and shining with joy. She remembered the words that she had spoken as she lay dying, a part of her and Daniel even though she was not born to this reality, cruelly torn stolen away by a race whose intent was to destroy Earth and any other planet it possibly could in order to take the inhabitants as hosts. She remembered the words the woman had spoken as she had been rushed into the infirmary, her life slipping away, having to fight for every breath, having to fight just to say what she had come to say, words that no-one else had heard, words warning of a cruel event which was yet to come, an event for which Kate held the key to stop Janet from losing the man she loved though she had yet to know what that meant.

"Hey." Came a gentle voice from the doorway.

Janet turned around to see Daniel wrapped up in a blanket standing at the door.

"Someone just wanted a hug," she told him looking tenderly at the infant.

"I don't think she's the only one." Daniel replied walking over to Janet.

"Do you know today it's a year to the day that we got Summer, a year to the day that Kate died and almost a year that we have been together."

"Is that why you're so upset, because of Kate? Honey we couldn't have done anything for her, the damage was already done."

"I guess that's part of it. Daniel she warned me something bad was going to happen to you and that she was the only person who could help you. It happened in her world. Now she's gone and she can't help and I know it's going to happen soon, I can feel it."

"When did she tell you this?" Daniel asked her kneeling down by the rocking chair.

"When she first came into the infirmary. I thought she was delusional, Daniel I wasn't even sure who she was then but she kept telling me that something bad was going to happen to you, that I would lose you if you didn't get her help and that when the time came for this to happen I'd feel it to the bottom of my soul and I do Daniel...I can just feel it."

"Why didn't you say anything?" he asked concerned.

"Because not everything that happened in Kate's universe is going to happen here. It may have been a future universe but it was an alternate one... and I didn't want to worry you. I didn't even figure we'd be together now."

"Why not?"

"Because Daniel I never figured you cared anything about me. I loved you since the first moment that I saw you Daniel and you barely spoke to me. You had Shau'ri and well I was just the doctor, even when Kate came through and we had Summer I never thought we'd end up here, not until you told me what you did after that argument we had and even then I wasn't sure if you meant it."

"Of course I meant it." he told her sincerely picking up Summer gently and taking her back to her crib, kissing her sweetly on the forehead and then tucking her back in.

He walked back over to Janet pulling her gently up off the rocking chair and sitting down, then pulling her down into his lap and wrapping her up in the blanket he had wrapped around him.

"You know a year ago I wouldn't have pictured us here either but Janet I am so glad we are here, together. I don't know when it happened but it did and I don't regret it for one minute. I honestly, from the bottom of my heart love you Janet and while I'm being honest I have for a very long time, it's just after Shau'ri I was so scared to embrace any feelings I had again but then when Summer came... You should have told me what she said baby." he told her gently seeing just how much she had been struggling with what Kate had told her.

Janet started to cry softly.

"Sweetheart it's not just this is it? What else is the matter?" he asked wiping her tears from her cheeks with his fingers. "Look I'm fine. Nothing is going to happen to me that could take me away from you and the girls, I promise. Maybe your just feeling this way because of what Kate told you, because she put the idea into your mind. Not everything that happened in her world is going to happen here, you said it yourself."

"I know." Janet replied tearfully. "I just couldn't stand it Daniel...."

"I know, I couldn't stand anything to happen to you either." he replied kissing her forehead.

"What is the matter with me? I've been all over the place lately." she stated wiping her eyes.

"We have a child in the house that's barely just started sleeping through the night honey, that can make a person tired." he told her smiling.

"I wouldn't have it any other way though." Janet told him, turning towards the crib.

"Me either." he replied with a smile. "Now lets leave the little one to sleep. I think her mommy needs some sleep too." he told her kissing her neck.

Janet let him take her hand and together they walked back to their room. Getting into bed Daniel turned to face her, pulling the covers up over her.

"You sleep now." he told her, stroking her tired face.

She looked at him with her chocolate eyes.

"Will you hold me Daniel...please?" she asked, her voice scared.

"Baby what..."

"Please?" she asked again.

Daniel moved closer to her and wrapped her in his arms tenderly.

"I've got you." he told her kissing the top of her head as she closed her eyes. "You rest now." he whispered as her breathing grew shallower and she drifted into a deep sleep, the man who loved her more than life itself watching over her protectively like another browned eyed angel who had brought them together exactly one year ago.


As soon as the klaxons sounded and the words 'unauthorized off world activation' floated through the base she knew something had happened. Quickly handing over the patient she was examining to Dr Warner she ran to the embarkation room.

"Doctor?" General Hammond asked the red-faced physician as she joined him at his side.

"It's SG-1 isn't it Sir?" she asked.

The General looked at the floor.

"Isn't it!" she practically shouted, the others in the room all going quiet.

"Yes doctor I'm afraid it is." he replied calmly as figures began to emerge through the Stargate.

"Oh my god Daniel?" she shouted running to the team, Teal'c carrying the limp figure of Daniel in his arms.

"What happened?" Janet demanded loudly.

"What the hell happened?" she asked as the General joined her.

"Sam, what happened?" the doctor asked her best friend who was looking at the floor.

"I'd like to know that too Major." Hammond stated.

"Sam?" Janet pleaded.

"We don't know. One minute he was fine, and then he doubled over in pain. His skin's tinged yellow and we haven't been able to rouse him." Sam told her friend as a med team ran in with a gurney ready to take him to the infirmary. "I'm so sorry Janet, we really don't know." she finished.

Janet looked at her friends sadly.

"Get him to the infirmary stat." she ordered her team who immediately left with the sick Daniel.

"Doctor you knew it was SG-1. How?" the General asked.

"An old friend warned me." she replied rubbing her stomach tenderly. "Look I have to go examine Daniel." she told them pointing towards the door.

"Of course doctor. Ring me when you have any news." the General replied as Janet gave him a weak smile and left.

"She looks like hell." Jack commented quietly, worrying about his friend.

"Yeah, I bet she feels like it too. I know I would if you were..." she looked at the General.

"Look why don't the three of you go and get showered then have something to eat. We'll brief at 1400 hours." the General replied, sensing that the Colonel and his 2IC needed to talk.

"Yes Sir. Thank you." Sam replied.

The General left the embarkation room somberly.

Jack took Sam's hand in his own and squeezed it.

"If I were in Janet's shoes... Jack I don't know what I'd do. It was hell when we weren't together and I knew I could lose you but now we've been together a year... I think it'd break my heart."

"The feeling's mutual baby. You think it'd be any easier for me to deal with the possibility of losing you? I had a hard enough time before we were together too."

"What if he dies Jack? Janet loves him so much."

"He loves her too, I guess we just have to wait. It's the only thing we can do." he told her sweetly leading her to the locker room, an arm around her shoulder.


Sam, Jack and Teal'c sat outside the infirmary waiting for news on Daniel. They had been waiting since the briefing had finished but had yet to hear any news.

The infirmary door opened and a tearful Janet stepped out. Sam got up and hugged her friend.

"Janet what's wrong with him?" Sam asked as her friend cried in her arms.

Janet stepped away and wiped her eyes.

"It was some sort of virus. It has stopped his kidney's from functioning properly that's why his skin has taken on a yellowish appearance. We've tried him on dialysis but it doesn't work, the damage is too severe. What he needs is a kidney transplant." she told them.

"Why did it attack Daniel and not any of us?" Jack asked looking at the remainder of his team who had been given a clear bill of health.

"I can't say." Janet told him.

"Surely there's a match on the base somewhere. There's gotta be." Jack told the doctor, worried for his friend, and the friend who was standing in front of him at that very moment.

"You would think that huh, but there's not. Two matches are too sick themselves after being injured on an away mission. The mostly likely donors would be family members of Daniel's but all he has is Nick and Nick's not here, Summer's way too little..." she began to cry again.

"Damn it what the hell is the matter with me?" she asked no one in particular.

"The guy you love is sick Janet, it's only natural that you're upset." Sam replied.

"Can we see DanielJackson, Dr Fraiser?" Teal'c asked.

"Yeah, of course." she told the Jaffa taking a deep breath.

Janet led the group into the infirmary and over to Daniel's bed. It shocked them to see the friend who just a few hours earlier had been his usual chatty and excitable self on the planet they had been on now lying weakly on the infirmary bed, his skin pale and of a slight yellowish appearance and his eyes closed.

"It's always you huh Space monkey." Jack commented taking Sam's hand in his own.

"Seems that way." Janet replied sitting down on Daniel's bed and stroking his face.

"If we can't find a donor how long has he got doc?" Jack asked.

"Because dialysis isn't working and both of his kidneys are damaged due to the virus, and that's the only thing that can prolong his life..."

"Not long enough." came a weak reply from the bed.

Janet turned to Daniel, stroking his face. He took her hand in his own and kissed it.

"I am so sorry this had to happen," he told her sincerely. "After what you said about Kate's warning..."

"Hey this wasn't your fault," she told him, her heart breaking. "You just promise me you're gonna fight."

"Always." he replied stroking her face.

Sam turned to Jack, looking at his pained face and realizing if she were in Janet's shoes she wouldn't know what to do. This man had been the love of her life since the first moment she had seen him, granted it had taken them four years to finally get together and that being when General Hammond had gotten the permission of the President to allow their relationship to be.

"Kate's warning...did I miss something here?" Jack asked the pair.

"Last year Kate warned Janet that something bad was going was going to happen to me, something which meant she was the only person who could help me. I guess this was it." Daniel told the man weakly.

"But her world was an alternate future, there are differences between realities and what events are going to happen in them, how could she say for sure that this was going to happen?" Sam asked joining Janet on the bed.

"She just knew Sam. At first I thought she was delusional but that warning's been stuck in my head ever since she died. I guess she just took the chance that it might happen so we knew that she could help if it came down to our needing it."

"But Kate is dead, she cannot help Dr Fraiser." Teal'c cut in.

"That Kate can't but there are probably more who would be willing..." Jack told them.

The group turned to face him.

"Alternate realities... hello. If Kate came from an alternate future through the mirror then there have gotta be some more out there where Kate would be alive and willing to help." he added.

The group looked at him stunned.

"Well I wanna help our space monkey." he added with a smile making everyone, even the sick Daniel laugh.

A cough came from behind the team.

"Hey Abby what can I do for you?" Janet asked the Captain who had provided her with so much help regarding Summer since she had arrived in their universe, who was now standing behind the team.

"I uh... It's kinda delicate," she told Janet.

"Go." Daniel told her.

"I'll still be here when you're done."

Janet leaned over and kissed him.

"You'd better be Doctor Jackson." she replied before walking off.

"About these alternate realities..." Daniel asked turning to Sam and Jack.

"Absolutely not." General George Hammond retorted.

"But why not sir? It could help him." Jack asked his superior officer as SG-1minus Daniel, and Janet Fraiser sat in the briefing room .

"Because Jack we can't just use the quantum mirror as a device to run missions for your own emotional reasons. It may sound unfair and I want to help Dr Jackson as much as all of you do, but it's unfair on those from the universes you will travel too. We are playing with people's lives here by asking them to do this; we are changing their own destinies and lives in order to make our own better. It's dangerous and I will not allow it."

"Sir what if somebody wants to help Daniel? We'd be giving them the choice not forcing them to come back through the mirror and do this for him."

"We may end up finding a donor here. What then? You'll have gone through dozens of realities, worrying people for no reason. I can't risk you doing that to people and I can't risk losing some of my best people. God knows what situations you could find yourselves pulled into if you travel through the mirror."

"Sir you don't want to risk losing some of your best people but you're going to lose one if we don't find a donor. There is no sign of one here on the base as hard as it is for you to believe that and if Daniel doesn't get one he's not going to survive. Usually dialysis serves in prolonging the lives of those suffering kidney failure until an organ is available but the virus Daniel contracted has put pay to that, it just won't work." Janet's voice started to rise.

"Look Sir, the quantum mirror has served as a means for us to help other versions of ourselves like Sam's counterpart and Major Kawalsky's when their world was under invasion by the Goa'uld, and for other realities to help our own such as when Daniel went through the mirror a few years ago to the base which was under attack. Just this once can't we use it in order to get some help? Kate herself said she was one of the only people who could help Daniel... Sir we're appealing for donors from the civilian public but there's not enough time..."

"How do you know she was talking about this situation doctor? She could have meant a totally different one and even then I would've been in the same position. You know the number or risks SG-1 have to face, the risks all of the officers on this base have to face every time they go on an away mission..."

"I know because she was our daughter sir and believe it or not she wanted to help. She warned me that this would happen and I know what we need to do."

The General sighed.

"Doctor I know that this means a lot to you, that Doctor Jackson means a lot you... to all of you but as much as it pains me I cannot allow this."

"You realize you're condemning him to death sir?" Jack commented to his superior officer.

"And you realize why I can't allow this. Jack I know he's your friend but I can't risk your going through the quantum mirror to do this."

"Sir it's not like we use it for anything else, it's just sitting there. Please, we have a chance at helping Daniel, can't we take it?" Sam asked.

"Indeed General Hammond, would it not be fair to at least allow him to have the chance to live?" Teal'c asked.

"My decision is final, I'm sorry. Now I will be putting SG-1 on stand down until..."

"He dies Sir? You can't be serious." Janet shouted.

"Doctor I have hope that a donor will turn up, believe me I don't want Doctor Jackson to die. That is not my intention. My intention is to prevent your arrival in other worlds causing disruption in events which are none of our business."

"But it's all right for them to come to us for help right Sir?" Jack asked sarcastically.

"Colonel..."

"You know what forget it, but remember this is on your head Sir, no-one else's."

Jack began to walk towards the door.

"General look I can see your point of view but you don't understand..." Janet told the General quietly walking towards him.

" I can't let him die Sir for my own reasons...Please let us save him...please..." she pleaded.

"Doctor Fraiser I realize you're in love with Daniel and I realize how hard this must be for you...."

"With all due respect Sir no you don't. You have no idea what I'm going through."

"I lost my wife Doctor..."

"And what's Daniel gonna lose huh? What am I going to lose if he dies? He has Summer, he has Cass...he has... he has a family Sir. He's already lost Shau'ri. What do you think it'll do to him if we had the chance to save him and you wouldn't let us take it...if he has to lose all he has now, if he never gets the chance to see a..."

"What Doctor?" General Hammond asked noticing Janet had turned incredibly pale.

"Please sir we have to help him," she pleaded beginning to cry, finding it hard to stand.

Sam walked over to Janet and helped steady her.

General Hammond looked at the woman standing in front of him. In all of the time she had worked here he had never seen her like this and it broke his heart. He truly wanted to help Daniel, the man was his friend and colleague but he didn't want to risk any problems that might arise, and that was where drawing a line was hard.

"I'm sorry." he replied his normally steady voice shaking.

Janet began to say something but finding it increasingly tiring to continue closed her eyes, gripping onto the table in front of her.

"Excuse me I have to go lay down," she told them all faintly, leaving the room.

For a minute Sam and the rest of the team just stood there but worried for her friend Sam left running after her, the rest of the group gradually dispersing also.

When they had left General Hammond sat down. He looked at the phone in front of him then dialed.

"Katherine? Hello it's George Hammond. I need some advice."


Janet Fraiser lay on her bed in a fetal position, the events of the day weighing heavy on her soul. She was tired and nauseous and just wanted to rest but still found it hard to close her eyes and drift off into a restful sleep, though she knew that if she didn't she would be mentally scolding herself for the rest of the day. She pulled the covers tightly around her and put a hand on her stomach rubbing it tenderly.

"You're choosing a hell of a time to be brought into the world little one." She said quietly, closing her eyes, a protective hand resting on her abdomen.

There was a knock at the door.

"Janet sweetie, it's Sam. You feel like talking?" her friend shouted from the corridor.

There was no response.

"Janet please don't shut me out." She continued. "You know I'm looking really stupid standing here and talking to your door."

Sam sighed and turned ready to leave, but she heard a muffled noise from inside.

"What was that?" Sam asked her friend.

"I said you could come in. But I only want to speak to you okay?"

"Yeah okay." Sam replied confused, slowly opening the door.

Seeing her friend as fragile as she was Sam walked over to the bed and sat down beside her.

"You okay Janet?" she asked putting her hand to her friend's forehead.

"We nearly lost you for a minute in there."

"I'm just really tired and a little dizzy. I'm fine."

"Doesn't sound like you're fine."

"Trust me I'm fine."

"If you were fine you wouldn't be laying here now, looking sick and exhausted."

"No Sam if I hadn't been up all last night and wasn't pregnant I wouldn't be laying here now looking sick and exhausted."

"Wait a second. Pregnant?"

"Yeah." Janet replied smiling. "Daniel and I are gonna have a baby."

"Wow." Sam commented.

"Yeah wow." Janet replied shifting on the bed.

"Well it explains why you've been so emotional lately, though with some of the stuff that has happened.boy this must have been hard on you." Sam told her friend taking her hand and giving it a squeeze.

"You could say that." Her friend replied.

"How's Daniel taken the news? He must be really excited." Sam commented.

"Daniel doesn't know Sam. I only found out this morning. Abby Matthews came in and described some symptoms she was suffering from and I did a pregnancy test, then I realized my symptoms have been exactly the same as hers and did a test too."

"Are you happy about this? I mean with what's happened to Daniel. oh god this must be so hard for you, knowing you're carrying his child and he may never even see it."

Janet sighed.

"Sam I won't lie this is not the easiest thing in the world to deal with on top of everything else that is happening at the moment. Knowing I could lose Daniel scares me to death. but yeah I'm happy about this. Since I've had Cass and Summer in my life I realized that there's nothing I want more than to have my own child, and to know that Daniel's the father just feels so right somehow. I'm scared to death though Sam, I'm a doctor but having never gone through this myself I have no idea what it's going to be like. and now with Daniel sick and General Hammond not allowing us to help him."

"Now I understand why you were so desperate to go ahead with this mission."

"I still am." She replied. "We can't just let this happen Sam not just for Daniel's sake but for this child's too."

"You really think we're not going to find a donor in time?"

"No I don't. Sam this virus, it's not like anything I've seen before. From what I can tell it's done all the damage it could do to his kidneys and in doing so took away any chance of dialysis helping him. We need a donor as soon as possible or he will die and I can't do a single thing to stop it."

There came another knock at the door.

"Hey Doc, it's Jack and Teal'c, can we come in?" came a voice from outside.

Janet buried her head in her pillow.

"Come on, we have a plan." Jack shouted.

"Janet they need to know about the baby. So does General Hammond. if he knew than maybe."

"Sam it'd take a miracle for him to change his mind. I see where he's coming from, I mean yeah we could change people's lives by going to their worlds and asking what we want to ask. but I love Daniel Sam, I love him so much that I feel like my heart is breaking inside and that can't be a good thing for the baby. I'm a doctor, I should be able to help but there isn't a thing I can do, just see him lying there and it hurts." She told her friend starting to cry.

Sam rubbed her friends back.

"Let's tell them okay sweetie, they've gotta know. You can't go through this alone and we won't let you."

Janet looked up at Sam with a small smile.

"Okay." She replied with a small voice.

"Guys, you still out there?" Sam shouted to her colleagues and her lover outside.

"No we had enough and left. You are talking to mere shells of your colleagues who."

"O'Neill are you not feeling well?"

"Huh?" they heard a confused voice reply from outside.

"You seem to be under some confusion about where we are?"

"Teal'c."

"Guys look are you gonna come in or not?" Sam shouted with a smile, amused by their conversation.

"Uh yeah." She heard Jack reply before he turned to Teal'c.

"It was a joke Teal'c. you know something to lighten the mood."

"I see." He replied lifting his eyebrow in his customary manner.

Just a few minutes later the door opened and the two men entered.

"Whoa you look like hell." Jack told the doctor as soon as he entered the room.

"You really know how to make a woman feel better don't you Colonel." Janet replied sitting up.

"Indeed you do not look well Doctor Fraiser, maybe you should go to the infirmary."

"Thanks for the concern Teal'c but I'm fine really."

"Look about the General, I think we should go talk to him again." Jack told her sitting down on the bed. "Daniel's too valuable a part of our team and our lives for us not to want to help him."

"I don't think he's gonna change his mind Colonel." Janet replied.

"Well we've gotta try something." Jack shouted.

"Ya think?" Sam replied sarcastically as Jack turned to look at her.

She shrugged.

"Sorry. Too much time with you honey, you're rubbing off on me." She replied.

"So that's your plan. Go and talk to the General again?" Janet asked.

"Well yeah." Jack replied slowly. "Come on Doc he was about to crack."

"Yeah and so am I if we don't get that donor and believe me that is something I don't want at the moment."

"Well what do you propose we do? Take off through the mirror and get Kate ourselves?" Jack replied.

"Well yeah. Look we've gotta do something or he's going to die. We're running out of time sir." She countered. "We have to do this Jack. Please?"

"Doc you know that wouldn't be a good idea. The General would go ballistic." Jack replied.

"Look Colonel we have to do this. Please let's help him. Besides since when did you become so bound by the rules anyway?" she shouted.

"Since when did you not?" he shouted back.

"Guys." Sam replied calmly, worried about an argument that was quickly escalating out of control.

"Oh I don't know Sir maybe since the guy I love got so sick that he could die in a few hours. maybe since I found out I am pregnant with a child who may never get to see his or her daddy because he died before they were born.Oh I think I'm gonna be sick." Janet finished quickly getting off the bed and running down the corridor.

Sam got up ready to follow her friend.

"Sam." Jack asked tenderly getting up "Is this true. she's pregnant?"

"Yes Jack it's true she is, and if I'm honest that little display there didn't do anyone any good least of all Janet. She's carrying a child Jack. she doesn't need any extra stress than what she's already under, it's not good for her or the baby."

"I wouldn't have argued like that if I'd have known." He told her quietly.

Sam put a gentle hand to his cheek.

"I know you wouldn't have, it's just Daniel doesn't know, Janet's scared to death. we need Kate, Jack for all of their sakes. Please just think about it." She replied giving him a tender kiss then leaving to find her friend.

Teal'c opened his mouth to speak.

"Don't even think about it Teal'c." Jack replied knowing that the Jaffa was not happy with the way he had handled the situation.

"I was merely going to say."

Jack put his hand over the former Jaffas mouth.

"Uh uh." He commented before walking off.

Janet Fraiser sat on the bench in the locker room, her head in her hands. Hearing footsteps behind her she turned around to see Sam.

"Hey." She said quietly, joining her colleague on the bench.

Janet smiled.

"Pretty bad morning sickness huh?" Sam asked rubbing her friends back.

"Oh yeah. I think I'm in for a thrilling time." Janet replied, brushing a strand of stray hair out of her eye. "But I wouldn't have it any other way. Even if I am gonna be wandering around the base looking like hell for a few months."

"Look I'm sorry about Jack. He had no idea about any of this. He was just trying to be sensible."

"Yeah I know." Janet replied. "I guess it was stupid to even contemplate going through the mirror without authorization."

"No it wasn't." They heard a voice say at the door. The pair turned around to see Jack walk in.

"Look I'm so sorry about before Janet, if I'd have had any idea I would have at least tried to be civil. This child needs its father." He told her putting a hand on her still flat stomach as he one day hoped to do with Sam. "And I'm going to do every damned thing I can to make sure that happens. You're right Daniel is our friend and he is way to important for us not to try this, whether we have the Generals permission or not, so I say we suck it up and go for it. You in or not?"

"I as you say am in O'Neill." Came a voice from the door belonging to Teal'c.

"Well yep so am I." Jack told them.

"I'm in." Sam told the group. "Janet."

She looked at her friends realizing just how lucky she was to have friends who were willing to risk their careers for her need to save Daniel, her lover and their friend for the sake of her, Daniel and their unborn child.

She smiled.

"For Daniel." She told them.

"For Daniel." They chorused.


Daniel lay weakly in the infirmary staring up at the ceiling, praying with all his might that somehow a miracle would happen and he would live through this. As every moment progressed he was finding it harder to breathe and harder to fight but he knew he had to, for the sake of Cassandra and Summer and for the sake of Janet who he loved more than he ever knew was possible. He had loved Shau'ri deeply and he missed her dearly every day but being with Janet made him feel whole and the love he felt for her was so incredible that at times he wondered why nothing had happened sooner.

"Hey sweetie." Came a gentle voice from beside him. He looked up to see Janet standing at his side. She kissed him on the cheek.

"Hey. You okay? Okay stupid question." he replied making her smile.

Janet sat on his bed.

"How you feeling?" she asked him stroking his face.

"You know, same old same old. You know I think some of your nurses have a crush on me doctor." he replied with a smile.

"Really? Well I have absolutely no idea why," she teased. "Oh yeah you do." he replied lifting his hand up and cupping her cheek with it. She leaned over and kissed him.

"Have you rung Cass, told her what's going on?" Daniel asked.

"Yeah I rung her half an hour ago, poor kid. She's convinced it's her fault somehow because everyone she loves leaves her."

"Of course it's not her fault." he comforted.

"That's what I tried to tell her. Abby Matthews is taking Summer tonight, Cass wants to come here after school and sleep in some quarters."

"In case something happens right." Daniel asked.

Janet nodded silently.

"You know when you're facing death you realize a few things. It makes you think." Daniel told her.

"Daniel..."

"It's made me realize a lot. Like how much I love you," he told her tenderly.

Janet started to cry.

Daniel gently pulled her down on to the bed next to him, her head resting on his chest. He stroked her face.

"I don't want to leave you, or the girls," he told her tears in his own eyes.

"I know baby, I know." she told him kissing his forehead.

"I love you so much." he whispered starting to cry.

"I love you too. You know that," she whispered back, kissing his cheek where the tears had fell.

She rested her head back on his chest, listening to the steady rhythm of his heart beating while he rubbed her back tenderly, still unknowing of the life that was growing in her abdomen.

She looked up at him and into his piercing blue eyes, which were filled with such fear and sadness. Hearing a cough from the doorway and turned to see Jack and Sam kitted out in their BDU's.

"I thought SG-1 were on stand down." Daniel commented to them.

"Oh yeah we are." Jack replied in his usual tone of voice. "You ready Doc?"

"What are you guys up to?" he asked knowing full well they hadn't received the General's permission to travel through the mirror.

"Oh nothin." Jack replied.

Janet kissed Daniel again, this time more passionately and sweetly, afraid that this might be the last time she might see the man she loved alive.

"Know that there's a lot for you here if you fight this Daniel." she told him tenderly moving the hand that had been resting on her back to her abdomen. Then she left, leaving a confused Daniel behind as she embarked on a mission that meant the difference between life and death.

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